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So I finally remembered my sign-in name and password so I can post an anonymous blog again. Hope you haven't forgotten about me... School is hard, but at least there are cute boys. Gay, emo ones, but cute, none-the-less... Josh is the hottest and he's straight, married, and, um, not sure what other word I'm looking for. But he made drawing class fun to go to, if for no other reason than that I got to look at him! ;) I've been on a few dates. Twice to Subway with R1. None with R2, and I actually think I'm okay with that. Once for drinks & dinner with M. Once with J for beers and dinner - that was last night. M & J are definitely the cute ones. R1 & R2 are cute, but I'm kinda over them. See, I told R2 where I stood on a bunch of stuff - mainly "I believe in God" - and I haven't heard from him since. I think that's a little wierd, cuz he was totally into me before that conversation, but whatevs. It's probably for the best. I am s...

KMC has been trying to release stargal's inner hippie. Last week, stargal's inner raver said NO! and started listening to an old tape of a dj-friend. Then stargal went to a friend's church for a worship/testimony thing. Stargal appears to be confused in the music department.

I heard "Romeo in Black Jeans" today when I was out shopping and it really made my day! :)

HOORAY!!!!! For those of you who don't remember, this date in 2005 was very important to me. It was the day I had my microdiskectomy - back surgery - to remove part of my L5-S1 vertebra and thereby cease compression of my sciatic nerve. The surgery was sucessful! And today, I am fairly pain-free. Figures that today, of all days!, I wouldn't have time to do my back exercises. So there's a little bit of tightness that is warning me to not sit for too long. Just had to share!

Ok, so this is not something I normally do. However, I was so disappointed in the last movie I saw that I just had to post. Um, it's also not really a review. Rather, it's a few comments on the last 2 movies I saw - both this week. This afternoon, I went to our local Cinema Saver and watched the break up . Thankfully, I waited until the second run and didn't see it in the theater because I'm not sure it was even worth the $2! Granted Jen is HOT and I would love to have her body, but it was a pretty boring movie. Parts of it reminded me a lot of How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days - which I loved - but they weren't as funny. At least in HTLAGITD they get back together in the end. (Wait, if you haven't seen either and want to, sorry...) Gary (Vince) finally realizes that he really does love Brooke (Jen) but she "doesn't know how she feels" and then the movie ends without us knowing if she ever did figure it out. Although I guess that "I Can See Clearly...

I drove Brad Pitt's truck last Saturday - woo hoo! It was definitely interesting......................... ;)

A woman rubbed an old bottle she had bought at a garage sale and out popped a genie. The amazed woman asked if she got three wishes. The genie said, "Nope, sorry. Three-wish genies are a storybook myth. I'm a one-wish genie. So...what'll it be?" The woman did not hesitate. She said, "I want peace in the Middle East. See this map? I want these countries to stop fighting with each other and I want all the Arabs to love the Jews and Americans and vice-versa. It will bring about world peace and harmony." The genie looked at the map and exclaimed, "Lady, be reasonable. These countries have been at war for thousands of years. I'm out of shape after being stuck in a bottle for five hundred years... I'm good, but not THAT good! I don't think it can be done. Make another wish and please be reasonable." The woman thought for a minute and said, "Well, I've never been able to find the right man. You know - one that's ...

I'm back. Seems like I just haven't been in the mood to blog lately. Too busy, I guess. I think I mentioned something about Seattle? Well, I got accepted to The Art Institute of Seattle for their Graphic Design program. I went out last weekend to check things out. Yes, I am still in love with the city. Good thing, eh?! I didn't get to see the housing, so I am choosing to live in a school-sponsored apartment, sight unseen. My fingers are crossed... :) And I just keep trusting God. The doors seem to all be open, so I just keep walking through them, trusting HIM. I haven't decided when I am going to move out there, but have started going through things. This morning, I went down to the basement to find my kitchen utensils. I opened a container and discovered, not kitchen things, but old school things. Textbooks & notebooks from all my previous trips through college. Yes, there have been many. Right out of high school, I went to college for Physical Educa...

I started a post about a month ago, and it was a rant, and I was depressed, and it didn't feel right, and it never got posted. And then, life got busy. Therefore..... I will attempt to update you on my life with out boring you. We'll see... Easter Bible conference was nice. The very attractive not-that-much-younger-than-me guy who was at the Thanksgiving conference was there. Apparently, he had a lot on his mind, so was not friendly at all. sigh. If only he weren't so attractive... ;) I sat with Brad Pitt at both hymnsings. And wavered between being Angelina and Jennifer. Fortunately, one of his younger brothers came along to play the role of Vince Vaughn to my Jennifer Anniston. It was quite amusing to those "in the know". :) I enjoyed the addresses, gospels and sing talks. And it was good to get away. On Easter Monday, 7 of us went to the Hockey Hall of Fame. It was AWESOME to finally get there. I've been wanting to go for years and it hasn't ever worked...

Local guy and I went shopping on Monday night. For shoes. Random. I know. This guy likes shoes more than I do. yikes! It was interesting... We haven't talked since because my computer's been un-sane. But he hasn't called me either. I can't imagine ever being more than friends with him. He doesn't even drink coffee!!!!! I can't believe I ever thought he was attractive. I actually kinda liked R. Briefly. ack ! Then guy friend walks in today and my little heart went pitter-patter. KMC almost killed me, I think. She is convinced that he's bad news for me. But seeing him does something to my insides and I can't explain it... And now, dear friends, I really must go pack for a Bible conference this weekend. Packing stresses me out, it's true. But I'm stressed about conference as well. Fortunately, H will be there and she will listen to me and give me good advise. Yay! :)

I found this song on an old tape from a youth retreat. It is meaningful to me, but I can't say that I always talk to the Lord as much as I would like. I found the lyrics here . Suffer In Silence Susan Aglukark Heart in a bottle High on a shelf Fragile, but just out of reach 'Cause you build a fortress Within the distance you keep But when your heart aches Doesn't it cut deep? You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence Don't you konw that your Heart can feel like an anchor When you keep it all inside No, no, don't suffer in silence Withered in sadness And hurting inside But feeling afraid to impose So you're an island But you don't have to be 'Cause if you're inclined You can talk to me But you don't have to suffer Suffer in silence You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence Oh I know that the pain can seem like an ocean But I'm just a word away No, no, don't suffer in silence I'...

So local guy that I emailed back. Met him at the game last night - thru a mutual friend. He's definitely attractive. He's someone that I've noticed at games for awhile and had no idea who he was. So I threw a message his way saying that. And he responded that he enjoyed meeting me too and that he wanted to go out after the game tonight. I got that message when I got home from the game. We're chatting right now. I really don't know what to think of all this. It's very flattering to have an older guy think I'm "easy on the eyes". It's something that I definitely don't think about myself very often, if ever. So that's where I am right now. KMC knows most of the details. M knows some of them. J wants to know the details. I'm not even sure I know how I feel...... What I DO know is that I am totally exhausted and falling asleep sitting here!

So it's been like 2 weeks since I have posted. Sorry. In March, my grandpa was in the hospital, in the nursing home, in the hospital, and is now back in the nursing home, mostly likely to not leave again. It's been rough on all of us, watching him go down hill so quickly after being "not old" for 95 1/2 years. At 97 and 3 months, his body is falling apart. He's been dehydrated and had kidney failure. His vascular system is compromised. He has necrotic tissue on his feet. Left untreated, this could turn into gangrene. He hasn't had a decent meal in a month now. He has problems swallowing. Mom is most affected by all of this, but Dad & I are as well as we have to "be strong" for her. On March 27th, my sister had a baby girl. Her name (the new baby's) is Annabelle. When she first was talking about the name, I wasn't exactly sure I liked it. However, it has grown on me and she's so totally cute!!! So in between all of this, we were traini...

Felt at work today like I couldn't focus on anything. It was quite frustrating! We are training for the new store that opens next week so there's a ton of people behind the counter. Fortunately, there are a few cute boys, so that makes life that much more interesting. ;) Speaking of cute boys... The one who reminds me of someone else comes in at 7:45. I discovered that yesterday when I followed him in. But I didn't talk to him yesterday or today. Sad, really, but as L pointed out, "he's not very friendly." I shrugged. He was nice to me last week. Saw my movie star today after weeks of not seeing him. His hand/wrist is healing nicely, but he said he's been forgetting to use vitamin E on his scar. He blamed it on being "really busy" and fighting with the insurance company of the woman who hit him. Let me clarify... His hand/wrist and the insurance company are totally unrelated. Those are just the things he's been doing lately. What I've be...

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Ok, so, wow! I haven't posted in 1.5 weeks. Ack! Where has the time gone? Well, I travelled to an away game last Wednesday, but it wasn't my home team that played. FUN! Friday, my grandfather was transferred from the hospital to the nursing home. I watched Jr. B playoffs all weekend and got to check out their very cute assistant-assistant coach. ;) Finally went to an AHL game last night and it was kinda boring. Started a paper journal today to figure out my life and the drifting that's taking place. So yeah, I've been pretty boring as of late. I need some excitement! I got tagged today, so I guess I should share.... Four jobs I have had in my life: 1. secretary 2. camp couselor 3. office clerk 4. barista Four movies I would watch over and over: 1. Miracle 2. The Breakfast Club 3. Mannequin 4. Dudley Do-Right Four places I have lived: 1. at home 2. in a dorm room 3. 4. Four TV shows I love to watch: 1. I don't watch any TV... 2. 3. 4. Four places I...

Like totally and completely Monday. What went wrong, you ask? Well... My grandfather hasn't been well recently and last night was pretty bad. He wasn't any better this morning. I didn't have to be to work until 8:15, so I was just getting around and dressed and packing up my lunch when my sister called and said "can someone meet me at work (to get my niece) because I'm running late?" I had to be that someone because m&d were taking care of Grandpa. So that made for a stressful morning and I ended up being late for work. But that was okay, I just jumped in and started doing what needed to be done. Things went down hill fast after A rolled his eyes at me (twice) because 1) he was misguiding one of the new guys and 2) he was measuring wrong and said it was okay because it wasn't very much over. I called him on both and he rolled his eyes at me both times. Trust me, I'm pretty non-confrontational, but when it comes to product specifications, ...

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I am off for two days, so figured I should at least start on my list of things I'd like to do with my life. So that's what I've been doing this afternoon. Well, that and arguing with my internet connection... In my catch-all notebook, I started several pages. They are: "what I like to do" "I'm good at..." "if I could do anything I would be..." "college athletics" "what I would need to do if I could do anything" None of the pages are very full. Mom asked if I was doing this for a class. It's not. But I like to make lists. It helps me pull my thoughts together. I think I'm going to add a page for "jobs I'd like to have", but so far I don't think there's anything to put on that page! I'll get there. Eventually. Work this week has been normal, if that's even a concept anymore...! I had my final post-op visit today. I love talking to the P.A.s rather than the surgeon. They are...

...Thursday was that campus visit. What a frustrating waste of my morning! The whole things was geared towards high school seniors and not transfer students like myself. Therefore, the tour was way more about res. life and campus activities than the academics. The good part was that I talked to the assistant director of admissions for about 2 seconds and she pointed me in a somewhat different direction, one that I haven't had a chance to check out yet. After working all afternoon, I had dinner with James. I'm so glad he's back in town, if only briefly. It was definitely good to talk shop and update him on the boys. He laughed at me and gave me his perspective on both guy friend and R. Somewhat helpful maybe??? ...Friday night was hockey. Hung out with R. Briefly. I had made eye contact with Ang and was mouthing "that's him" and he caught us mid-convo. He wanted to know what we were saying about him and was like "or am I not allowed to know?!" I said ...

So tomorrow, I have a "campus visit" at the local university. I've decided that boys are silly and a waste of my time and that I would be much better off not worrying about them and finishing my degree. I informed bossman that I was doing this and he said, "we need to have a talk about the rest of your life before you go off and do something like that". 7.5 hours later, I'm still not sure when exactly we are going to have this little chat. For what it's worth, my 6-month review is now 3 weeks overdue... I've discovered a new band called mindFIELD . They are an electronic/industrial band from Boston. I actually discovered them on myspace through a dj friend. Speaking of music, here's my current car rotation: 1. Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band, The Beatles 2. Living in Oblivion, The 80s Greatest Hits Volume 2 3. Lost & Gone Forever, Guster 4. The Woman in Me, Shania Twain 5. The Best of Simon & Garfunkle 6. Shine: The Hits, Newsbo...

1) Why do boys act interested and say they'll call and then not?! 2) Why do they then show up with another girl when they said they'd see you?! 3) Why do I keep setting my expectations so high?! mood: ANGRY

My friend Josh informed me that Feb. 14 is "Single Awareness Day". Another friend, when I shared this information with him, dubbed it "Single Awareness Week ." I had to agree. After all... I'm the one who mailed valentine's to my single friends! :) Seriously, I worked all day and went to prayer meeting in the evening, so I didn't even really think about it being any different from any other Tuesday. I did, however, eat WAY too much sugar! lol Last night, I went on a bus trip to a "home" game that was much closer to the away team's town than to "home." Logistics! Anyways, the game was, well, not good. They got breakaways. Our goalie got blamed - but there were no d-men in front of him, so it wasn't totally his fault! On the way bus on the way back, the somewhat attractive male sitting behind me became really friendly and ended up asking for my number. Made a crappy game seem not to bad. HOWEVER... I know absolutely nothing abou...

T's been in my brain this weekend...make it stop!!! Valentine's Day is Tuesday. Made my first line of cards and mailed them all out. I did take pictures, so perhaps I can post them...if I ever get them on my computer! I hope the people I mailed them to like and appreciate them. They were a lot of work! But I enjoyed every minute of each one, so that's a good start for me! :) Did I mention that I'll be single for Valentine's Day? However - wait...this isn't related to that! - I found my engagement ring at Birks . Can't remember the price, but it was in Canadian so it must be cheap...! lol But since there is absolutely no one on the horizon, I may have to buy it for myself and wear it on my right hand. Yeah, right. Not on this paycheck! Speaking of paychecks... I don't know where my last hockey one is.... I'm currently on a 5-day weekend. I had originally asked for Fri-Mon off for a possible hockey trip with Ang. We didn't talk for a ...

I have so many things I want to post about, but don't really feel like posting. :( I have Friday - Tuesday off and would love to go somewhere, but I've been checking flights and can't really seem to find anything that I want to spend the money on to go to. (did that make ANY sense?!) So in the process of looking for a quick trip - perhaps somewhere I've never been to?!! - I fell onto this site where you can put in your birthday and click either UK or US and find out what song was number 1 the day you were born. It's neat. My US song is: (Hey Won’t You Play) Another Somebody Done Somebody Wrong Song - B. J. Thomas and my UK song is: Bye Bye Baby - The Bay City Rollers. I have to say that I don't know either song, although I have heard of The Bay City Rollers. And now, I really need to get off the computer and finish up those valentines I've been working on so I can get them in the mail. Ta ta for now! :)

Ok, so I posted on Tuesday night... Wednesday, I managed to get myself invited to a cute boy's surprise birthday party. I didn't mean to, it just happened. J was turning 24 and his family was throwing this party. He thought they were just all going out to dinner and then going to C's for cake. Turns out, when he got to C's, there were 10 people hiding in the room off the kitchen. He was very surprised! It was fun to hang out with Christians. Ok, so they were cute Christian boys, but at the same time, the whole group was a lot of fun. Thursday & Friday were pretty dull as far as the boys went. Friday afternoon, I drove to King of Prussia and met B for a mini-girls weekend. We had dinner at The Cheesecake Factory and shopped until the mall closed at 9:30. Saturday morning, we went to the Corner Bakery Cafe for breakfast. The food was alright, but the service was nothing special. We were in the mall when it opened at 10. (We are so proud of ourselves!) S...

After working at the mall until 9 last night, I went to the grocery store. A cute hockey player followed me in, although I did not know I was being followed. He stopped me in the produce aisle to chat. He appologized for not remembering my name. He's the sweetest guy...who's NP?! I promised to make him a cheesecake sometime, but since we didn't exchange phone numbers and cheesecake is best when kept chilled, I'm not sure when this will happen. sigh. It gets better... I was on my lunch today, sitting near the door, when this guy in a blue soccer pullover and shades walks in and says hi. I was like, I think I know you. Then he took off his shades and I was like OH! It was my freshman seminar teacher from my first semester of my last attmpt at college life. He's hot! He gave me a big hug and we chatted for a while. When my lunch was done, he hugged me like 3 times and kissed me on the cheek and said "call me". Oh, did I mention that he's single? dreamy si...

So this guy's been coming in every morning and he totally reminds me of T, only he's taller! And cuter. Anyways, he came through DT this afternoon and we had this random convo about his coming in in the morning and me never working DT and we were both there today. Wierd. Anyways, before he pulled away, he smiled at me, and suddenly, my day got BRIGHT ! After that, the hockey player that said he'd bring me tickets came thru and got my name and told me to go to will call tomorrow night. His gf is such a sweetheart. :) After that... my movie star showed up. I thought he'd fallen off the planet, but said he's just been really busy. I might get to take some pictures of him. Apparently he needs some taken, and since I want to be a photographer, we might work together. Interesting..... So needless to say, it was a good afternoon in DT. YAY! :) Found a new favorite place to hang out. A martini bar/cafe opened recently and a bunch of us went there last night ...

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I don't make 'em. Simply because I can't promise to stick to a plan and never waver. Dictionary.com defines resolution this way: 1. The state or quality of being resolute; firm determination. 2. A resolving to do something. 3. A course of action determined or decided on. If I'm relying on God to direct my paths, I can't decide something with "firm determination" because if it is not the Lord's will for my life, then I am going against God's plan for me. I did, however, find a good New Year's verse in my devotional this morning. Phil. 3:13-14 says: "...forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." I think that's the only "resolution" I will make! God help me!

12:30 a.m. January 1st. I can't believe it's already 2006! I had hoped for a big bash. Instead, I went to the hockey game (we won!) and came home, made pizza, served snacks to my parents and their friends from Toronto. (I was the 5th wheel all weekend - even more reason for wanting to do it up BIG, but alas!) The friends didn't stay up until midnight, so I served the sparkling grape juice - pink in honor of champagne - and Mom, Dad & I watched the ball drop and now everyone has gone to bed. And you know, I'm not all that impressed with the dropping of the ball anyways. I think it's overrated. And I'm alone. Whatever. We are at meeting all day on the 1st, so I'd better get some sleep. xo xo xo :)