so it's been a while.....
I will attempt to update you on my life with out boring you. We'll see...
Easter Bible conference was nice. The very attractive not-that-much-younger-than-me guy who was at the Thanksgiving conference was there. Apparently, he had a lot on his mind, so was not friendly at all. sigh. If only he weren't so attractive... ;) I sat with Brad Pitt at both hymnsings. And wavered between being Angelina and Jennifer. Fortunately, one of his younger brothers came along to play the role of Vince Vaughn to my Jennifer Anniston. It was quite amusing to those "in the know". :) I enjoyed the addresses, gospels and sing talks. And it was good to get away.
On Easter Monday, 7 of us went to the Hockey Hall of Fame. It was AWESOME to finally get there. I've been wanting to go for years and it hasn't ever worked out. Megan & I decided we should treat ourselves for our birthdays and the rest of the kids just went along. I definitely enjoyed it more than the rest. This is us in the "Habs locker room."
We walked to the CN Tower, but didn't actually have time to go up. It was a gorgeous day and the view would have been amazing.
That night, back at the house, there was a birthday party for the 3 of us who had birthdays around Easter. Just burgers and cake and fellowship. It was enjoyable. Ralph shared Psalm 34 with us and I don't remember all that he said, but it was meaningful.
Especially when the phone rang at 7:45 the next morning and it was Mom calling to tell me that Grandpa had gone HOME to be with his Saviour Jesus Christ. Immediately, I thought of Ralph's words from the night before, "What is this confusion? There's a tear in my eye, but peace in my heart." How thankful I am that I will see him again!
We had originally planned to go to Niagara Falls, but we opted to just go shopping at the nearby mall. See, Mom had said for me not to rush home because they had a lot of phone calls to make and a lot of arrangements to make. They had originally urged me to not change my plans for the weekend, even though they weren't sure he'd make it thru the weekend. So Megan & I shopped for a little bit and then I finally dragged myself out of their house around 2:30. I made it home in 5 hours. (!) I can't think of a better place I could have been to get that news that in that house. I have a new family away from home. :)
The funeral was set for the following Saturday. Mom asked if it would be okay and I said yes, that I would just not have a birthday this year. We had a houseful of family & friends for the weekend. There was such an out-pouring of love. We were, and still are, truly blessed. B & C and their parents came for the weekend. They dragged me out for dinner - I picked Moe's, even tho it's not exactly dinner. J & J came over to the house after that and we played Scattergories and watched Dudley Do-Right. So it worked out ok, even though I was feeling quite anti-social.
After that, I felt like I couldn't concentrate on anything and I seriously think I may have really had depression. I did a bit of research online and found out that I should seek help. I started looking at graphic design schools. I worked a lot. I was still feeling depressed.
On May 5th, I went with a friend's youth group to see Josh Bates & Nicole Nordeman open for Casting Crowns. WOW!!! I hadn't ever really listened to Nicole Nordeman, but I liked her music and what she said. She started singing her song "Hold On" and I started bawling. It was so much like me. And I realized that I hadn't been leaning on God enough, if at all. And it was very cleansing. (I bought the Brave, the cd that song is on.)
The following Monday, I had some issues at work and K & L took me in the back room and talked to me. That night, I went and saw Akeelah & The Bee. It's very emotional and very feel-good. I woke up the next morning and realized I felt better. And, while it hasn't been all sunshine & roses since then, I'm definitely doing better.
I had an admissions interview with a graphic design school. I have totally clicked with this assistant director of admissions. I did my financial aid paperwork. I just have to apply and go visit the place. Turns out, it's on the other side of the country. This is somewhat stressful to me, but I know I need a change. If you think of it, please pray for me as I make this decision.
Tomorrow is A's birthday. I haven't decided what to get her yet. Hmmm...
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