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Local guy and I went shopping on Monday night. For shoes. Random. I know. This guy likes shoes more than I do. yikes! It was interesting... We haven't talked since because my computer's been un-sane. But he hasn't called me either. I can't imagine ever being more than friends with him. He doesn't even drink coffee!!!!! I can't believe I ever thought he was attractive. I actually kinda liked R. Briefly. ack ! Then guy friend walks in today and my little heart went pitter-patter. KMC almost killed me, I think. She is convinced that he's bad news for me. But seeing him does something to my insides and I can't explain it... And now, dear friends, I really must go pack for a Bible conference this weekend. Packing stresses me out, it's true. But I'm stressed about conference as well. Fortunately, H will be there and she will listen to me and give me good advise. Yay! :)

I found this song on an old tape from a youth retreat. It is meaningful to me, but I can't say that I always talk to the Lord as much as I would like. I found the lyrics here . Suffer In Silence Susan Aglukark Heart in a bottle High on a shelf Fragile, but just out of reach 'Cause you build a fortress Within the distance you keep But when your heart aches Doesn't it cut deep? You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence Don't you konw that your Heart can feel like an anchor When you keep it all inside No, no, don't suffer in silence Withered in sadness And hurting inside But feeling afraid to impose So you're an island But you don't have to be 'Cause if you're inclined You can talk to me But you don't have to suffer Suffer in silence You don't have to suffer Suffer in silence Oh I know that the pain can seem like an ocean But I'm just a word away No, no, don't suffer in silence I'...

So local guy that I emailed back. Met him at the game last night - thru a mutual friend. He's definitely attractive. He's someone that I've noticed at games for awhile and had no idea who he was. So I threw a message his way saying that. And he responded that he enjoyed meeting me too and that he wanted to go out after the game tonight. I got that message when I got home from the game. We're chatting right now. I really don't know what to think of all this. It's very flattering to have an older guy think I'm "easy on the eyes". It's something that I definitely don't think about myself very often, if ever. So that's where I am right now. KMC knows most of the details. M knows some of them. J wants to know the details. I'm not even sure I know how I feel...... What I DO know is that I am totally exhausted and falling asleep sitting here!

So it's been like 2 weeks since I have posted. Sorry. In March, my grandpa was in the hospital, in the nursing home, in the hospital, and is now back in the nursing home, mostly likely to not leave again. It's been rough on all of us, watching him go down hill so quickly after being "not old" for 95 1/2 years. At 97 and 3 months, his body is falling apart. He's been dehydrated and had kidney failure. His vascular system is compromised. He has necrotic tissue on his feet. Left untreated, this could turn into gangrene. He hasn't had a decent meal in a month now. He has problems swallowing. Mom is most affected by all of this, but Dad & I are as well as we have to "be strong" for her. On March 27th, my sister had a baby girl. Her name (the new baby's) is Annabelle. When she first was talking about the name, I wasn't exactly sure I liked it. However, it has grown on me and she's so totally cute!!! So in between all of this, we were traini...